i drew back from the edge
fearful of
what might happen
if i failed
but then
i found myself
trapped
by the
overwhelming
desire
to jump
and the dreadful fear
of doing so.

it’s a kind of
limbo
that involves
much effort
and resistance.

but let’s face it
we are screwed anyway
life is painful
jump
or stay.

so after a
moment or two
of realising the
utter hopelessness
of my situation
i jumped.

and….