i should like, if possible,
to meet my death consciously
in awareness and presence
i want to be there fully
and to gaze into the eyes
of its totality
to say a loving farewell
to all this
that i have grown so used to
and even, at times, thought
would last forever
i would like to feel
the absolute inevitability
of it all
and draw my final breath
knowingly
as i pass across the threshold
and let go into the unknown
as yet i simply cannot imagine
what those moments must be like.