Today there are wild horses running in my head,
Pulling at my thoughts, scattering my mind.
Today there are dark corners lurking in my heart,
Keeping long-gone secrets, hiding long-lost loves.
Today I carry the weight of a thousand worlds,
Struggling to keep afloat in a sea of strangeness,
Stumbling and falling, hurting and howling,
Waiting and praying … and starting over again.
Today I am just a flicker in the eye of God,
Passing quickly in the night, frightened of the light.
Today I am a million miles away from You,
Separated by storms in my soul, distanced by tears on my breath.
Yearning and longing, waiting for eternity,
Praying endlessly, waiting and praying,
Till today becomes tomorrow … and I start again.
(Written in 2003 upon falling into love with my beloved, who went away to India on a trip and I was left at home in the UK bereft and lovestruck)