I am sorry
To those I treated unfairly and cruelly
In the days when I didn’t know better
When my ignorance and self absorption
Got the better of me
I am sorry I took my pain out on you
I had no idea then
But I know now
And sometimes my heart is weary for the past
And the ways I once was
I see a boy, a young man, angry and scared
Hurt and resentful
Who took it out on those who got close to him
I was afraid of you getting too close
It triggered my own inner demons
A darkness I carried everywhere
But couldn’t reach or resolve
I am sorry
Thank you for tolerating me
And teaching me

I know better now
And I share that with others
In the hope they will share it with others
And we can stop taking our pain out
On each other

But mostly I am sorry.