I AM LEAVING WORDPRESS

This is it
I am leaving wordpress after 5 years of poetry

It has been wonderful
But enough is enough

If you want to stay in touch and follow my poetry
You can find me on substack
https://kavijezziehockaday.substack.com

My subscription will run until the end of this month and then expire.

Thank you so much for following me, liking my poems and paying some attention.
The poetry is not stopping, only my chosen and preferred platform.
I still do all my poetry free and substack is no different.

So if you fancy continuing the journey jump on.
Otherwise be well and be blessed.

Kavi Jezzie Hockaday

FALL INTO SKY NATURE

The tangled web we weave
Entangling ourselves and each other
In the stickiness
Like a glue that wants to harden
And solidify into something fixed

All this entangling must come undone
Sometimes in one fell swoop
Often as a gradual erosion

The inherited and conditioned patterns
Woven into us unconsciously
Parents, religion, morality
All the ancestral wounds
Playing themselves out in each of us

All this must cease being the driver
Of our urges, our habits and our addictions

This is a call to become naked and innocent
To fall into the unknowing-ness prior to personality

It is no small call, not for the feint of heart
It is a warriors challenge, for it takes great courage
To take everything off
To remove the veils
To open Pandora’s box
To meet the ghosts
To face any and all demons
Not from a place of war
But from the deepest peace and openness
As the sky accepts the tumult of the storm.

Image by Brigipix from Pixabay

WHEN THE WAVES FIGHT, THE OCEAN CRIES

Oh my love
So much division
Among us

How can we stand it
This endless fighting
Of the waves

While all the time
Our souls, or hearts
Longing for union

Oh my love
Let us put down our sticks
Lay down our weapons
Whether guns or words
Whether opinion or belief
And love each other anyway
Even in the wreckage
Even in the froth
Of these turbulent waves

I don’t know any answer
But love’s deepest acceptance
And even though I may err sometimes
Still I come back to this surrender

I am sorry
Please forgive me
I love you.

MY SONG OF GRIEF

Sometimes I just get so sick of all this ridiculous bullshit
I try and remember it’s all a leela, a play, a game
And only consciousness is real
And ignorance is the only real enemy
(and not one to be fought with
but to be transcended with awareness)

But in truth I get weary
Walking this world
As it implodes
And eats itself with division

I discovered love to be the only worthy thing
Worth standing for
And I devoted my life, my service, my every breath to that

I have not transcended the world
I am not above it
I feel it in every fibre of my being
I feel it all, the suffering, the horror,
The blindness, the blame, the malevolence
The manipulation, the tyranny
My how it hurts sometimes

And all I can do is speak it,
Say its name, in the pain of love
I know I am not alone in this
And maybe you feel the same sometimes

There is no remedy
And I’m not looking for positive words
If we don’t speak the truth
We are doomed
This is my song of grieving.

THE SHIFT IS WITHIN

We are hurtling towards collectivization
It is inevitable, written in the stars,
The Shift of the Ages

What kind of collectivization
Is what the inner and outer struggle
Is all about

Will it be about freedom and unity and love
Will each individuation serve the whole
Recognizing itself in the other
Creating a world guided by enlightenment

Or will it be collective tyranny
Driven by fear, division and mass control
Creating a world lost in separation and paranoia

While we may not be able to do anything much about the outside world
We can do so very much about the inside world
AND THAT BECOMES THE OUTSIDE WORLD

Start within…It is the only way.

  • Image by Chu Viết Đôn from Pixabay

REMEMBERING HEART

A collective that cannot share its sorrows
Cannot sit together in its grief and suffering

And see each one in the eyes of the other

A people so lost in individuation
It loses its humanity

Has not lost its mind
It has lost its heart
Forgotten itself
Fallen under a spell

The task of the restless one
Is to remember their own heart
Uncover it from all that has covered it
And then to shine it out
So others may also remember theirs

That is all we can really do
The rest is up to the divine.

Image by Sarah Richter from Pixabay

The Dark Place

I, like you, have been to the dark place
I have crawled in the pit of despair
Met the existential black hole
And surrendered myself to it
I have railed at God
Thrown myself away
Fallen, got up, fallen, got up
Fallen and stayed there

As I finally stopped looking for hope
Or hanging on to anything the mind offered
I gave myself to the dark place
And there, in that overwhelm,
I swear there was the tiniest chick of light
That seemed to beckon me towards it

I had no idea whether it was death itself
Or the light of life
As I drew closer to it I saw
It was beyond both, neither death nor life,
But the light of an unconditional love
Out of which everything arises
And into which everything falls

Yes I have been to the dark place.

Drenched in Sorrow

Here we are
Crying the grief of the world
Broken hearted lovers
Drenched in sorrow

No knowing if these tears
Are ours or the worlds
Or just the fact of being human

No more lost in denial
Or any attempt to bear it all
No more brave face or false mask

Just this surrender
And in this great allowing
Something new stirs within us
And within the heart of the world

New growth, a new way
A new vision emerging
Out of the rain

May we walk tenderly on the new path
Yes, we are drenched in sorrow,
But that sorrow is the doorway
To life’s true beauty

And few dare go through

You and I are made for this.

Image by Emmi Nummela from Pixabay

FEAR AND LOVE

Fear demanded attention
Threatening all manner of horrors
It rose up like a demon
And covered the radiant sky
In a dark and ominous cloud
It proclaimed dominion over the world
And over all beings that walked upon it
Humanity shuddered under the weight
Unable to resist fear’s manipulation of truth

And then love arrived
Not a weak kind of transactional love
But a powerful love with light at its centre
Blazingly brilliant sun at its pulsating heart
Ferocious and wrathful, resolute and affirmative
The kind of love that dissolves everything that is not itself

The same battles have been playing themselves out For millennia
In the human heart and soul and mind
Generation upon generation
Individuals, societies and civilizations
Rising and falling,
Shrouded by the veil of fear
Coming into the light of love
And disappearing back into the darkness

Only an inner revolution
In the heart and the soul of each individual
Truly matters
Each of us called to meet the tyranny of fear
And its constant desire for dominion
And to find it within ourselves
To blaze unconditional, ferocious, affirmative, love
Like a millions suns took up residence in our chest
And now all that comes into our orbit
Is dissolved back into the love that we really are.

Image by Deflyne Coppens from Pixabay

WHISPER IN THE NIGHT SKY

Personality is a whisper in the night sky
You are the night sky
And the whisper within it

Come my confused friend
Let us dance away our sorrows
On the eternal stage
From shooting star to super nova
Black holes and dying suns

We can whisper our names
Into forever
If we need to
It will mean everything
And nothing

The truth is no one knows why anything happens.

Image by Myriams-Fotos from Pixabay